Hi ππΎ Happy Autumn! The Earth's position has changed as it rotates on its axis. Now it's further away from the sun NOOOOOOO π. However, the sweating was getting tiring.
I have extra weight on, so this cold feels great to me. My pussy is still toasty π₯΅π₯ so warm. But my toes are kinda cold.
Don't my nails look cute here? All done by me, and thanks to you π (ocean theme, I'm not 100% done yet!)
Since I don't have a boyfriend anymore, and I'm taking care of my mom at home, I don't know when I'm getting dick. So for now, my content will be solo. Regular photosets and videos will be done. I just wanna have fun on here and not stress from the kind of content I want to do (I wanna do b/g so bad but I'm so picky) and instead focus on what I actually can do (since I can't go outside much)
Sending so much love π
Stray cat here, will you take me? Free lewds as a thank you for subbing π₯
I put these pasties on my tiddies but now they won't come off. Wish you were here to help rub some oil on them so they can come off π
HI MY SEXY SUBBIES I'M BACK WITH a cute little video saying hey and shaking my butt. I was roller skating this week and I fell on my BUTT I'm still a little sore so I be sitting on a neck pillow until idk how long
It's convention season boizz
Which city's convention[s] would you wanna see me in?
I'm down to go on a lunch date with fans ^_^
["lunch date" is not a code word btw let's eat some food]
I'll be in Boston for PAX East April 21st to the 24th π
Tip $25 for this mini-set of topless pics sent to your DM! π»π These are pics I would send my boyfriend, if I had one. π₯Ίπ D-do you wanna be my boyfriend? π₯΄
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE SUPPORT BABES!! Here are some BTS/test shoot (for lighting)/oopsie pics? lol.
NEXT POST will have more info on content I will have β¨scheduledβ¨ yes I said β¨scheduleβ¨πππ (wish me luck lol)
Hey cuties! <3 I did a Valentine's Day photoset on my bed! My V is on display too. π€€ Tip $30 for the full package π
Life Update:
My mom has heart failure... her doctor thought it was pneumonia. π (what a shitty doc) I'm not okay. I haven't had sex in a month, my libido and general motivation was GONE. But now she's on medication and recovering so I'm not in a constant state of panic! Yay!! This month has truly been eye-opening for me -- the human body is so fragile. Life is so short.
My tooth is still cracked, and I for some reason keep punishing myself for it. My mind drifts into a dark place that makes me feel like I deserved this and no one should help me, and constantly having to tell myself those thoughts are wrong has emotionally drained me. But I'm back on my feet! I told myself, "you never know unless you try," as I was setting my bed up. I tell myself, "don't listen to that," as soon as a negative thought comes in telling me to give up. I'm pretty harsh on myself; past trauma still trying to put me in a chokehold (that I didn't consent to lol) by calling me a loser, a failure...
Even my therapist recommended I try increasing my antidepressant dosage, and it was at that moment that I decided to get this shoot done. A little goes a long way. A big goal is made up of small steps, and as long as I do at least one thing towards reaching my goals, I can achieve success.
I had misplaced my nail supplies and was too depressed to clean my room in order to find them, but I just stayed patient with myself and after a week (yeah my room was a mess lol) I found them!! So that's why that third pic is there, I just had to show you guys my hard work that I did this ALL. BY. MY. SELF! ^.^
Anywho, thank you for the support!! The background, lights, lingerie (by Rhianna), the makeup, selfie timer, tripod, nail supplies, even hair products for my curls, all purchased thanks to you!!
Take care of yourselves π
Hey everyone!! I made the vid with my guy and... the lighting is horrible and the quality is potato. Due to covid and this cold weather, I've been hesitant to go outside and see him to try it again. But man, I'm so sorry for overhyping this. I feel like this wasn't supposed to be as serious as I made it out to be. I wanna release a few videos every month of me doing something fun with a dick for you guys to enjoy!! While also doing art and cosplaying... and streaming and editing and all the damn things.
I will update tomorrow night and send out videos to the preorders! Thank you so much for the support. β€οΈ
He tied me up and grabbed my ass in Christmas colors~ Lewd and nude versions of this photoset available!
And please take a moment to read this if you want. I wrote an honest letter to my supporters:
"I feel like a failure, but it's better to share these real emotions with you all because at the end of the day, you're real people subscribing to me.
You've saved my life multiple times with your generosity and kindness this year. I feel like my silence makes it seem like I don't care and want to take advantage of you all, but that guilt has led to more silence, hiking up my anxiety, leading to more silence, then more anxiety. It's been a continuous loop and I'm writing this in an effort to break this wheel, because you guys really are sweet and understanding and you do appreciate and read these posts.
My subscribers may be horny degenerates but you all also have a heart and are completely capable of understanding my feelings and you guys always do.
You're not all a scary group of super horny m*n who only want to see me naked and then abandon me. You guys are my supporters! And you wanna see ME dressed up and sexy and having fun (and sometimes naked lol)! It doesn't matter what other creators do. It's not fair for me to compare my efforts to other creators who live a completely different life from mine.
This "job" is a lot more stressful than it seems, and it truly is difficult for me to mentally handle the reality of what I upload to the internet. But this platform has totally changed the way people look at sex work in a positive way! I feel like someone who willingly crawled into the darkness that I called online sex work, but now there's this bright light at the end of the tunnel, called cultural acceptance of sex work, and I'm approaching it, but with with a seemingly unshakeable fear because it's honestly too fucking bright holy shit am I gonna be okay if I keep going? lol
I'm looking around and noticing other creatives stepping out of the dark and into the light as well and they're living their dreams! It's like the light leads to an amusement park and everyone who does the same job as me are having so much fun while I'm hiding in the dark, occasionally peeking out and approaching the park, but always returning to my comfort zone in the darkness because the light is so bright it's hard to believe I'm going to be stepping into fun and not to my end.
....Okay, I'm not sure if that made ANY sense cuz I smoked some of the gewd stuff before writing this... but that was the best I could currently describe how my life feels and how it's going.
The main point to get out of this is: I'm not leaving and I'm not quitting. Periodt. lol."
REGARDING MY M/F video:
I am re-shooting tonight!!! ^_^ I had to scrap the other one cuz I felt like it was too short and not a good angle.
TWERKING TO UNDERTALE MUSIC!! Yes, you read that right, and it's called Waterfall! ;3
IF YOU PRE-ORDERED MY M/F VIDEO, YOU GET THIS NOW! (check your inbox!!)
OR tip $10 to get this fun video sent to your inbox~
UPDATE on the collab: I was tbh really embarrassed to mention it this weekend, but I was so focused on getting that vid done that I forgot I still have a cycle.... so that happened over the weekend... But it's done and I'm seeing if I can reschedule with my guy this week!
And to those wondering about my tooth: My new appointment is set for next week. I'm still not at my goal but I'm confident I'll get my smile back before Christmas ;-;
Scheduled a very fun day with a good friend and fellow OF creator!! I'm so excited ! That man is a pussy expert! A professor of Pussay.... A scholar of the fine arts of pumpum.... Lol you get it π€ͺ. Enjoy the Livestream lewds β₯οΈ
Here's some booty in fishnets while I update you guys on the vid!
The men I had fun with last week turned out not to be comfortable with me selling it to you guys. I have a fellow OF friend who reached out and I will be collaborating with him to produce a video for you guys! I still haven't made enough to repair my tooth :'(
I've been receiving a lot of messages and have fixed my phone so please let me know if I owe you anything because whew message organizing on this site is... well, they tried.
Ping me!! Love you guys <3
Had an incredible weekend that was very distracting but I've been dealing with technical issues on my phone. I'll respond to messages very shortly! π Here's pics of some beach fun a few months ago!
Thanks so much for the preorders!! The video will be available Saturday night. βΊοΈπ₯° Still taking preorders and you can still buy the other two videos whenever. π₯΄ This pic from my nude Ninja photo set I did last year, it's available too!
Heyyy I'm gonna get this fat ass drilled tonight! ππ₯° I've never done this, but tip $5 to pre-order the video I'll make of us so I make sure it gets done!! (Full price: probably $40) (Different guy btw)
NEW VIDEO ALERT!!! Sloppy Outdoor Toppy ππ¦π¦π¦π¦
Sooo I wanna raise $700 to fix my chipped tooth (I had an accident ugh). Message me and I can sell it to you! I'll be responding to messages all night~
Heyyy it's been a long month of sadness for me. Yesterday I worked on a cute bunny costume shoot, then dressed down and took more spicy low-light photos. I'll be working on editing these this weekend so I can release them soon. Thank you for the support and love through this time.
Raw feelings post:
Honestly I've just been feeling awful about myself because of my lack of activity, and the stress I've been getting from feelings of failure and not doing enough is really fucking with me. I'm gonna be on antidepressants soon. I've been trying for years to tell myself I can get back up by myself but I think I've reached a breaking point.