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🍳 My kitchen is my creative workshopCooking for me is not a ..

🍳 My kitchen is my creative workshop

Cooking for me is not a chore, but a meditation. When the knife glides over fresh vegetables, and the onions and garlic sizzle in the pan.... It's pure magic!

✨🔸 Why do I love cooking?
Because it's:
✔️ A way to express care - through taste and flavor.
✔️ An opportunity to experiment - to mix, to taste, to surprise.
✔️ A real therapy - when your hands are busy and your head is resting

A tough week is behind me... But I made it through! 💪This we..

A tough week is behind me... But I made it through! 💪

This week tested my mettle with deadlines, endless tasks and coffee instead of sleep. ☕😵

🔹 What helped me not break down?
✔️ Iron Nerves
✔️ Motivation
✔️ Weekend Thoughts 🛋️

Hope my little motivation makes your day lighter and brighter 💘

🌧️ A rainy day is an occasion for coziness and warmth 🌧️ Tod..

🌧️ A rainy day is an occasion for coziness and warmth 🌧️

Today it's gray outside the window, drops are tapping on the window sill, and the air is filled with freshness after the summer heat. Rain is not a reason for sadness, but an opportunity to slow down, make your favorite tea, wrap yourself in a blanket and spend time with yourself or your loved ones.

📖 Reread the very book you couldn't get your hands on.
🎧 Turn on a playlist with cozy fall tracks (even though it's summer outside!). ☕ Boil cocoa with marshmallow or a spiced latte - warm in a cup.
🎥 Have a movie theater at home with rain movies or just your favorite melodramas.

How do you spend rainy days? Share in the comments! ☔💛

You see me, but you don't know who I am yet. I know how to ..

You see me, but you don't know who I am yet.

I know how to be different.

But there is one “but”: I only reveal myself to those who are not afraid of depth.

If you're not here for quantity, but for a qualitative “we” - you're already standing out.

Now the question: are you ready for me to be real?

📬 Write. We'll feel the rest together

📖 Books are the quiet friends who can speak the loudest 📖Eve..

📖 Books are the quiet friends who can speak the loudest 📖

Every page is a journey. Every line is an emotion. Books teach us to dream, to feel, to live a thousand lives from the comfort of our own homes.I love the moment when my fingers glide over the spine, the pages rustle, and the light scent of paper wafts in the air

Books are not just words. They are whole worlds hidden between the covers.Do you have that one book that changed you? One that you want to return to again and again?
Share it in the comments - I'll take a note! ❤️

📚 I recommend reading: "The Subtle Art " - Mark MansonThis b..

📚 I recommend reading: "The Subtle Art " - Mark Manson

This book is like a breath of fresh air in a world where everyone is shouting about motivation, success and eternal positivity. The author explains without wussiness and formulaic phrases why it is important to choose what to spend your nerves on, and how to stop chasing everything.

🔥 Why is it worth reading?
✔ Teaches you how to distinguish the important from the garbage in your head.
✔ Will help you stop worrying about the opinions of others.
✔ Will prove that failures are normal (and even useful).

📖 Phrase in theme: "You can't be important to everyone. You can't achieve everything. And that's freedom.

If you're tired of toxic positivity and want an honest conversation about life, take it in hand. After it, many things seem easier.
What book has helped you reconsider?
Share in the comments! 👇

Rough day? It happens. 💔Today was one of those days when eve..

Rough day? It happens. 💔

Today was one of those days when everything is falling apart, you can't do anything and you're running out of energy.
But know this: even on the toughest days, there are small victories. You coped, you endured - and that's already a lot 💘
Let's just relax today. With a cup of tea, under your favorite TV series or in silence. Tomorrow will be a new day, new strength and new opportunities.

And if you want - tell in my DM, what helps you to survive such days?

Maybe your advice will be a support for someone else. 💛

Days when you don't want anything are not a failure of the s..

Days when you don't want anything are not a failure of the system, but an important part of it

Today I give myself permission to just be: no overachievements, no checklists, no remorse for being "productive". Sometimes a cup of coffee, a favorite playlist, and silence is the right answer. ☕️

How do you reboot?

NEW RECIPES  😋 👉 of.tv/c/womens-secretsToday I will show and..

NEW RECIPES  😋 👉 of.tv/c/womens-secrets

Today I will show and tell you the recipe for an incredible snack. Do you want to know what the ingredients are?
You should watch my video! And in a matter of minutes you will have an excellent snack.

Let's go watch 😍

🌿 How about we talk about something nice? 🌿The world is full..

🌿 How about we talk about something nice? 🌿

The world is full of amazing things, from the smell of fresh coffee in the morning ☕ to random compliments from strangers 💬

✨ Maybe you have a favorite quote that inspires you?
✨ Or a funny incident that still amuses you?
✨ Or maybe you just want to share your mood today?

Let's create an island of kindness and positivity in the comments! 💛

WE COOK WITH OUR HEARTS TOGETHER WITH ME 😋 Weekends are a ti..

WE COOK WITH OUR HEARTS TOGETHER WITH ME 😋

Weekends are a time for experimentation in the kitchen! Keep one of my recipes, which are easy to prepare, but are eaten instantly.

Cheese crunches in 15 minutes Ingredients:
Lavash (2 leaves)
Cheese (suluguni/mozzarella) — 200 g
Garlic, herbs, spices — to taste 
Sour cream/ mayonnaise — for greasing

How to cook: Cut the lavash into strips. Mix the grated cheese, crushed garlic, and herbs. We lubricate the strips of pita bread, spread the filling, and roll the "rolls". Bake for 10 minutes at 180 °C until crisp. Voila — you'll lick your fingers!

Write to me in the comments, are you interested in this format of posts? 💘

🌙 What are your plans for the evening? Quiet coziness at hom..

🌙 What are your plans for the evening?

Quiet coziness at home or active outings? Either way, may your evening be warm and filled with pleasant moments! 💫

Options for inspiration:
🍿 A movie under a plaid with something delicious
🍷 Dinner in good company (or by yourself - that's precious too!)
📖 A book you can't tear yourself away from
🎶 A concert, an exhibition or just a walk to your favorite music

The main thing is to spend time the way you really want to! 😌

🌿 Just a good moment 🌿 Sometimes it's worth stopping. Take a..

🌿 Just a good moment 🌿

Sometimes it's worth stopping. Take a deep breath. Look around.

Today is not just about business and plans. It's also the scent of fresh coffee, the rustle of leaves outside the window, the laughter of a friend on the phone, a favorite song playing in the headphones.

Life consists of such moments. Let's notice them more often. 💛

𝓔𝓿𝓮𝓻𝔂𝓫𝓸𝓭𝔂 𝓵𝓲𝓴𝓮𝓼 𝓽𝓸 𝓹𝓵𝓪𝔂 𝓰𝓪𝓶𝓮𝓼. 𝓑𝓾𝓽 𝓸𝓷 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓲𝓻 𝓸𝔀𝓷 𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓶𝓼, 𝓸𝓯 𝓬𝓸..

𝓔𝓿𝓮𝓻𝔂𝓫𝓸𝓭𝔂 𝓵𝓲𝓴𝓮𝓼 𝓽𝓸 𝓹𝓵𝓪𝔂 𝓰𝓪𝓶𝓮𝓼. 𝓑𝓾𝓽 𝓸𝓷 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓲𝓻 𝓸𝔀𝓷 𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓶𝓼, 𝓸𝓯 𝓬𝓸𝓾𝓻𝓼𝓮. 😉

𝓘 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮 𝓲𝓽 𝔀𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝓵𝓲𝓯𝓮 𝓲𝓼 𝓵𝓲𝓴𝓮 𝓪 𝓬𝓵𝓪𝓼𝓼𝔂 𝓪𝓭𝓿𝓮𝓷𝓽𝓾𝓻𝓮. 𝓘'𝓶 𝓷𝓸𝓽 𝓻𝓾𝓷𝓷𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓪𝓹𝓹𝓻𝓸𝓿𝓪𝓵, 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓲𝓯 𝔂𝓸𝓾'𝓻𝓮 𝓷𝓸𝓽 𝓵𝓸𝓸𝓴𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓮𝓲𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻, 𝓶𝓪𝔂𝓫𝓮 𝔀𝓮 𝓬𝓸𝓾𝓵𝓭 𝓫𝓮 𝓲𝓷𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓮𝓼𝓽𝓮𝓭? 𝓑𝓾𝓽 𝓲𝓯 𝓪𝓷𝔂𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰, 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓬𝓪𝓷 𝓳𝓾𝓼𝓽 𝓾𝓷𝓼𝓾𝓫𝓼𝓬𝓻𝓲𝓫𝓮. 😏

Do you often choose to be yourself, even if it's not always comfortable? Or are you more comfortable living by other people's rules? 🖤

Ⓛⓘⓕⓔ ⓘⓢ ⓣⓞⓞ ⓢⓗⓞⓡⓣ ⓣⓞ ⓑⓔ ⓑⓞⓡⓘⓝⓖ, ⓘⓢⓝ'ⓣ ⓘⓣ? 🤩I'm not afraid to..

Ⓛⓘⓕⓔ ⓘⓢ ⓣⓞⓞ ⓢⓗⓞⓡⓣ ⓣⓞ ⓑⓔ ⓑⓞⓡⓘⓝⓖ, ⓘⓢⓝ'ⓣ ⓘⓣ? 🤩

I'm not afraid to go my own way. It's definitely not for everyone. But if you feel like it's your path, how about walking it with me? Although. what if it's not that interesting? Who knows. 🤭

Have you ever wondered what would happen if you just stopped doubting and started living for real? I can give you a hint: it looks like free flight to me. 🚀

Question by HelgaIf you could choose one subject for my next..

Question by Helga

If you could choose one subject for my next photo shoot - what would it be? A sword? A mirror? Or... something you're afraid to even think about? ⏳🔑
The most unexpected ideas can become reality.

🅸 🅳🅾🅽'🆃 🅵🅾🅻🅻🅾🆆 🆃🆁🅴🅽🅳🆂. 🅸 🅲🆁🅴🅰🆃🅴 🆃🅷🅴🅼 🅼🆈🆂🅴🅻🅵. 🖤Sometimes I th..

🅸 🅳🅾🅽'🆃 🅵🅾🅻🅻🅾🆆 🆃🆁🅴🅽🅳🆂. 🅸 🅲🆁🅴🅰🆃🅴 🆃🅷🅴🅼 🅼🆈🆂🅴🅻🅵. 🖤

Sometimes I think all I need is some exciting attention. But what do you need? Perhaps exactly what you'll only find if you stick around. But remember, I'm not forcing anyone to follow. 😉 So if you're interested, stay around. And if something doesn't feel right, you can always unsubscribe. 💅

Revamp your morning routine: Start your day the royal wayLet..

Revamp your morning routine:

Start your day the royal way

Let's talk about how to boost your morning routine! I'm experimenting with a new routine that includes 10 minutes of sunrise yoga, a super-charged green smoothie (recipe below!), and a 5-minute gratitude journaling session. Tip: replace scrolling through your phone with a walk in the fresh air. Fresh air makes a difference.

Smoothie recipe:

½ frozen banana

A handful of spinach

Almond butter + chia seeds

Coconut water + ice

Blend and sip like you own the world!

What is a must-have for you in the morning?

𝑰 𝒍𝒊𝒗𝒆 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆 𝒐𝒏 𝒎𝒚 𝒐𝒘𝒏 𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒎𝒔. 𝑰𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒌 𝒊𝒕'𝒔 𝒆𝒂𝒔𝒚 - 𝒚𝒐𝒖'𝒓𝒆..

𝑰 𝒍𝒊𝒗𝒆 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆 𝒐𝒏 𝒎𝒚 𝒐𝒘𝒏 𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒎𝒔. 𝑰𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒌 𝒊𝒕'𝒔 𝒆𝒂𝒔𝒚 - 𝒚𝒐𝒖'𝒓𝒆 𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒃𝒂𝒃𝒍𝒚 𝒘𝒓𝒐𝒏𝒈. 😉

𝒀𝒆𝒔, 𝑰 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒄𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒐𝒇 𝒂𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏. 𝑩𝒖𝒕 𝑰'𝒎 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚𝒐𝒏𝒆. 𝑰𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖'𝒓𝒆 𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒆𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒅, 𝒇𝒐𝒍𝒍𝒐𝒘 𝒎𝒆. 𝑰𝒇 𝒏𝒐𝒕, 𝒘𝒆𝒍𝒍, 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒂𝒏 𝒂𝒍𝒘𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒖𝒏𝒔𝒖𝒃𝒔𝒄𝒓𝒊𝒃𝒆. 𝑵𝒐 𝒐𝒇𝒇𝒆𝒏𝒔𝒆 𝒕𝒂𝒌𝒆𝒏. 😏

Have you ever wondered why all the most interesting things happen in my life? Maybe you're just on the wrong side of the screen? 👀

TIME of incredible food with HELGA 👉 of.tv/c/womens-secretsI..

TIME of incredible food with HELGA 👉 of.tv/c/womens-secrets

In this episode, you'll learn how to literally make a non-vegetable carpaccio recipe in 1-2 minutes

Remember my recipes 😉

Book recommendation 📖Recently read an amazing book - “Fair P..

Book recommendation 📖

Recently read an amazing book - “Fair Play” . Addictive from the first few pages!

If you're looking for something inspirational or just a good story, I highly recommend it.

What books have you imprinted this year?

𝙼𝚊𝚗𝚢 𝚙𝚎𝚘𝚙𝚕𝚎 𝚝𝚛𝚢 𝚝𝚘 𝚙𝚕𝚊𝚢 𝚋𝚢 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚛𝚞𝚕𝚎𝚜 𝚌𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚋𝚢 𝚘𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚜. 𝙱𝚞𝚝 ..

𝙼𝚊𝚗𝚢 𝚙𝚎𝚘𝚙𝚕𝚎 𝚝𝚛𝚢 𝚝𝚘 𝚙𝚕𝚊𝚢 𝚋𝚢 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚛𝚞𝚕𝚎𝚜 𝚌𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚋𝚢 𝚘𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚜. 𝙱𝚞𝚝 𝙸 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚒𝚣𝚎𝚍 𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊 𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎 𝚊𝚐𝚘: 𝚖𝚢 𝚛𝚞𝚕𝚎𝚜 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚘𝚗𝚕𝚢 𝚘𝚗𝚎𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚖𝚊𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝚘 𝚖𝚎. 𝙰𝚗𝚍 𝚒𝚏 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚒𝚜𝚗'𝚝 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚢 𝚝𝚘 𝚊𝚌𝚌𝚎𝚙𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚖, 𝙸 𝚍𝚘𝚗'𝚝 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚎𝚡𝚙𝚕𝚊𝚗𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜. ⏳

Have you ever wondered why so many people seek approval? Why are they afraid to be themselves? Why do you waste your energy trying to conform to other people's expectations? 🚀

I'm not afraid to be me, and I'm not afraid of losing someone who isn't ready to be on my level. How about you? How often do you abandon your principles to please those around you? 🤔

🕊️ Queen of Silence 🕊️Tonight I had a perfect evening with m..

🕊️ Queen of Silence 🕊️


Tonight I had a perfect evening with myself: a warm bath, a book smelling like old libraries, and the sounds of jazz. Sometimes the world is a softer place if you slow down..... 🛁

How do you spoil yourself in silence?

𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝓭𝓸𝓷'𝓽 𝓷𝓮𝓮𝓭 𝔀𝓸𝓻𝓭𝓼 𝓽𝓸 𝓴𝓷𝓸𝔀 𝔀𝓱𝓸 𝓘 𝓪𝓶. 𝓜𝔂 𝓹𝓻𝓮𝓼𝓮𝓷𝓬𝓮 𝓪𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮 𝔀𝓲𝓵..

𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝓭𝓸𝓷'𝓽 𝓷𝓮𝓮𝓭 𝔀𝓸𝓻𝓭𝓼 𝓽𝓸 𝓴𝓷𝓸𝔀 𝔀𝓱𝓸 𝓘 𝓪𝓶. 𝓜𝔂 𝓹𝓻𝓮𝓼𝓮𝓷𝓬𝓮 𝓪𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮 𝔀𝓲𝓵𝓵 𝓮𝔁𝓹𝓵𝓪𝓲𝓷 𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻𝔂𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰. ✨

I live by my own rules, and if someone decides to challenge them, I will play by my own terms. 🎯

Balance is important to me. Style, relaxation, inner peace - all in harmony. I don't chase trends - I create them. 🔝

🌟 Work sometimes throws us challenges, doesn't it? 💼💥 There ..

🌟 Work sometimes throws us challenges, doesn't it? 💼💥

There are days when everything seems difficult: many tasks, stress, misunderstandings... But it's in such moments that we grow and learn new things! 💪✨

Have you ever had a situation when it seemed like everything wasn't going the way you wanted? How did you cope with difficulties? Share your stories in the comments - together it's easier to overcome any difficulties! 🙌

After all, every experience makes us stronger and wiser. The main thing is not to give up and move forward!

𝓢𝓮𝓮 𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓷 𝓘'𝓶 𝓽𝓸𝓵𝓭. 𝓘 𝓯𝓮𝓮𝓵 𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓷 𝓘'𝓶 𝓼𝓱𝓸𝔀𝓷. 🔥ℳ𝓎 𝑔𝒶𝓏𝑒..

𝓢𝓮𝓮 𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓷 𝓘'𝓶 𝓽𝓸𝓵𝓭. 𝓘 𝓯𝓮𝓮𝓵 𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓷 𝓘'𝓶 𝓼𝓱𝓸𝔀𝓷. 🔥

ℳ𝓎 𝑔𝒶𝓏𝑒 𝒾𝓈 𝒶𝓁𝓌𝒶𝓎𝓈 𝓈𝒽𝒶𝓇𝓅 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓂𝓎 𝒷𝑜𝓊𝓃𝒹𝒶𝓇𝒾𝑒𝓈 𝒶𝓇𝑒 𝒶𝓁𝓌𝒶𝓎𝓈 𝒸𝓁𝑒𝒶𝓇. ℛ𝑒𝓈𝓅𝑒𝒸𝓉 𝒾𝓈 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝑜𝓃𝓁𝓎 𝒸𝓊𝓇𝓇𝑒𝓃𝒸𝓎 ℐ 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉. 💎

ℐ 𝒸𝒶𝓃 𝒷𝑒 𝒸𝒶𝓁𝓂, 𝒷𝓊𝓉 𝓌𝒽𝑒𝓃 𝓃𝑒𝒸𝑒𝓈𝓈𝒶𝓇𝓎, 𝓂𝓎 𝒶𝒸𝓉𝒾𝑜𝓃𝓈 𝓈𝓅𝑒𝒶𝓀 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓂𝓈𝑒𝓁𝓋𝑒𝓈. ℐ 𝒶𝓂 𝒾𝓃 𝒸𝑜𝓃𝓉𝓇𝑜𝓁 𝑜𝒻 𝓂𝓎𝓈𝑒𝓁𝒻 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓉𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝒷𝓇𝒾𝓃𝑔𝓈 𝓂𝑒 𝓈𝓉𝓇𝑒𝓃𝑔𝓉𝒽. 💪

There's a special charm to these morning moments....When the..

There's a special charm to these morning moments....

When the sun is just rising and the room is in a soft twilight. When the first sip of coffee feels magical and your thoughts are still on your to-do list.

I love those moments of silence before the day begins. I love how the sun's rays draw patterns on the walls, how the shadows play with the outlines of objects.

What is the most precious thing about the morning hours for you?

Sometimes, in the hustle and bustle of everyday life, we for..

Sometimes, in the hustle and bustle of everyday life, we forget to stop and appreciate the small but important moments that make our lives rich and meaningful. Time spent in silence, reflection, or simply in tranquility can help us understand our true values and priorities.

Real wealth is not material wealth, but the ability to appreciate others, find joy in each day and take care of your inner state. It is important to remember that development and harmony begin with awareness of your needs and respect for yourself and others.

Let each of your days be filled with peace, harmony and inspiration. Do not forget to take time for yourself, your thoughts and loved ones - these are the moments that create the foundation for a full and happy life.

I wish you to find the strength and wisdom to go forward, appreciating every moment and every opportunity for growth and self-realization.

𝐈 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐯𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐜𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞. 𝓔𝓿𝓮𝓻𝔂𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓘 𝓭𝓸 𝓲𝓼 𝓭𝓮𝓵𝓲𝓫𝓮𝓻𝓪𝓽..

𝐈 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐯𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐜𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞.

𝓔𝓿𝓮𝓻𝔂𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓘 𝓭𝓸 𝓲𝓼 𝓭𝓮𝓵𝓲𝓫𝓮𝓻𝓪𝓽𝓮.

Every step, every word, every choice is thought out. My life is my project, and I am its architect.

I create my realities, and whoever tries to interfere will remain a spectator. I'm not afraid of being the center of attention - I just live my life on my own terms.

Hi, my good man! 💕I've been thinking... and we could be havi..

Hi, my good man! 💕

I've been thinking... and we could be having a much more interesting time than just through a screen. 😉 You know I save my most intimate moments for my subscribers - those moments that you can't just see.

Maybe it's time to finally find out what I'm really like? Not just a pretty picture, but alive, passionate, sometimes even whimsical..... 😘

Subscribe - and let's start this journey together. I promise you'll love it. 💋

P.S. Write me - I love to connect with people who really want it.