let’s be real and get deep: having a reallyyyy bummer day to..
Added 2020-08-27 03:10:07 +0000 UTClet’s be real and get deep: having a reallyyyy bummer day today, i feel so anxious and stressed out thinking about the future and trying my best to stay positive that things will all work out. 😓 i probably had too much caffeine earlier in my matcha latte, so this is gonna be rambly i’m so sorry but anyways...it’s my goal to eventually have my own place, and i just reallyyyyy really wanna make that happen SO fucking bad. i want to feel like i can breathe, walk around naked if i feel like, have a place to shoot my cosplay content, and my own lil gaming corner that ISNT in my bedroom. i’ve outgrown the room i rent, for sure. i feel so couped up where i currently am and it’s making me claustrophobic. been here 2 YEars and it’s nice, but it’s time for something more liveable. but when i start looking at places and their prices i start feeling overwhelmed as heck. like i think i can do it, it’s just scary. i’m really trying to just keep working hard on Patreon and also now doing a teeny tiny bit of ONlyFans on the side. ( patreon still my #1 main focus since i put so much planning into my sets for that, especially the pasties sets. so big thank you to those of you there! y’all help me pay my rent!!! 🙏🏻😭 )and now i’m thinking i’ll start streaming on twitch again too. and maybe sell prints, stickers, etc. any amount that i can make and save to put towards creating a better life where i can make better content, and not feel stressed about my decision to move out. that’s honestly all that i want. i’m just so mentally drained from all the virtual appt hunting i did today. 🙈 i need to end my night by doing some exercise so i think i’ll play some Beat Saber with my VR headset (you really do get sweatier than you’d think 💦) and try to take it easy the rest of the night. i am just in a really anxious mood right now and thought i’d vent somewhere. 😫 okay love y’all and ty for listening to me 🥺 if you have anything you wanna vent about that you’re also stressed about feel free to comment below or even send a message. 💖
