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I have an appointment with a psychiatrist next week, which is honestly almost a miracle. I'm going to get him to prescribe me everything. fuck it, i'll figure it out. If i'm smart enough to rewire my own brain, I can handle managing some pills. today is three years hrt. not a very happy day. I'm very disappointed. in a funny twist, almost 10 years ago i wrote some sad music with a sample of someone saying "three... years." I found and opened the old project files and was happy to see the marks of my own idiosyncratic creativity, but sad that it seems out of reach recently. i'll get back to it eventually.
 
                    
                    
                
                
                
                    
                     
                    
                    
                
                
                
                    
                     
                    
                    
                
                
                
                    
                     
                    
                    
                
                
                
                    
                     
                    
                    
                
                
                
                    
                     
                    
                    
                
                
                
                    
                     
                    
                    
                
                
                
                    
                     
                    
                    
                
                
                
                    
                     
                    
                    
                
                
                
                    
                     
                    
                    
                
                
                
                    
                     
                    
                    
                
                
                
                    
                     
                    
                    
                
                
                
                    
                     
                    
                    
                
                
                
                    
                     
                    
                    
                
                
                
                    
                     
                    
                    
                
                
                
                    
                     
                    
                    
                
                
                
                    
                     
                    
                    
                
                
                
                    
                     
                    
                    
                
                
                
                    
                     
                    
                    
                
                
                
                    
                     
                    
                    
                
                
                
                    
                     
                    
                    
                
                
                
                    
                     
                    
                    
                
                
                
                    
                     
                    
                    
                
                
                
                    
                     
                    
                    
                
                
                
                    
                    